Hello blog readers,
I have so much to say to you, but frankly most of it doesn’t matter anymore. My life since the beginning of the year has been so far from what I had expected or planned. Long story short- 3 surgeries over the course of 3 weeks to remove 1 (large) kidney stone. In a word, it was hell. Life before the stone was far from ideal, but I was getting used to it. It meaning me being single. Needless to say, I have had a shitty year so far. One thing right after the other. But after many hours and days spent thinking about how I can regain control of my life that has spun so out of control, I decided I would just do it. I would have to have the support of my friends and most importantly my family, but if they were behind me, I could do it. It has taken me this long to recover from a broken heart, a broken kidney, and a slew of other broken things but I am ready to restart my life. I am far from healed- in any of the areas- but I need to be in the mindset that I am better, otherwise I will never get better.
I have been saying how much I hate 2010, and so far I really do. It has done nothing good for me, like nothing at all. I have been fussy and bitter since the moment the new year started. I am sorry to all of those that have been around me for the last 3 and a half months, I know how I have been acting- its mostly uncontrollable. Anyway, I have decided that the craptastic part of the year ends now. I am not allowing it anymore.
The spring has sprung and I am making the most of it.
So, that is where I have been for the last 3 months. I was falling apart and putting myself back together. There is so much more to say, but not now.
In short, my life got twist-turned-upside-down and now it’s time to fix it.
love
